Archive for May, 2010


May 5, 2010

I didn’t sleep last night. I don’t know why. I was tired. I hadn’t had any caffeine. I wasn’t particularly stressed about anything. I went to bed and closed my eyes and lay there quietly, trying to relax, but sleep didn’t come. After a while I got up and read for a bit, then went back to bed. Again, I was tried and lay quietly, but still sleep didn’t come. At four in the morning I gave up and came downstairs to do some work.

I have always had an insomniac bent, although the past few years of not living in New York and not swimming in orals/dissertation/job search stress have been markedly better. Most nights now it doesn’t take me longer than an hour to get to sleep. Now and then I have a tougher night and toss and turn for a couple of hours and sometimes I feel wakeful enough to get up and go read in the guest room for a while. But this is the first completely sleepless night I have had since we moved into Heather House, so in more than a year. It’s still not pleasant, but compared to the later stages of my orals when I was having these nights on a weekly-to-monthly basis, it’s a definite improvement.

Today is my last day of undergraduate classes, and I don’t have anything planned other than a few student presentations and some wrapping up business, so it should be an easy day. I’m glad I don’t have to go out and face a hard day of teaching difficult topics. In a few hours I’ll be home and hopefully by then I can just fall into bed and get down to some serious snoozing.



May 1, 2010

Today is May Day, called vappu in Finland. We started our day with a relaxing sauna and decided to take the day easy. E. has had a tough week at work; several of the day staff have been away at a conference, so she’s been going in to cover some of their hours during the day in addition to her regular evening shift. I’ve had a relatively easy week, but it’s getting to the end of the semester and I’m getting burned out, so we could both use a bit of a break.

Springtime moves on apace around us. The smaller trees have all their leaves out and the larger trees are eagerly pushing out buds. Some of the early wildflowers are starting to go by, but we have a lovely little patch of violets who apparently hitched a ride with the raspberry bushes I brought down from Maine last summer. The raspberries themselves seem to have taken quite well and it looks like they are putting out buds– we look forward to picking some berries in the summer.

The back lawn is greening up nicely, but the front lawn is a little brown and sickly looking. Hopefully a little sun and a little rain will help it start growing again.